Fell off the wagon

Well I haven't had time to post lately. It has gotten hectic. I was doing chem homework in driver's ed, and still managing to take 5 pages of notes for driver's ed in 3 hours. Blah.

I started TRACK! Yes! ME! With bad knees and all. I love it. Yesterday, I forgot socks, so now I am missing around five inches of skin off the bottom of each foot, plus five huge blisters. I can barely walk, but I have to run outside today. :)

I can't look cute. :( I need to get cute running clothes. Our first meet is on Tuesday.

I am having a major boy crisis, and I haven't had much luck with sleep lately. Fun. lol

I must post more tonight, but for now, I have to find something to wear!

Tennis

I am signing up for High School Tennis. My dad played in high school, he actually got a scholarship too. I played for six years, my sister plays. It seems logical. Swim is over, and I want something to do. :P

I have a feeling my parents won't be happy if they have to drive me, so I need to get a job to get a car, to get insurance. :P

I am going to run 3 miles today. No exceptions. I have to finish, no matter how long it takes me.

Judging Me?

"You dress goth." "Why do you wear so much black?" "Are you emo now, going to cut yourself?"

Would it be too harsh to tell everyone to fuck off? I think I might loose some friends... I can't help I like the color black...

There was a point to saying all that, but that has escaped me. Oh gosh. 5 1/2 hours of sleep KILLS me.





I am amazed I can still do that. OH YES! People said so much about my black attire. hah Really? I have pink tight that have huge holes, or I had thick black tights that were in one piece. What would you have chosen. Mind you our home is barely hovering at 55 degrees.

"I'm the girl your ex will hate, the girl your mom will love, and the girl you'll want to be with forever."

That holds true, once I stop swearing.

"A women who doesn't wear perfume has no future." -Coco Chanel

I am going to try whatever my friend got from Victoria's secret a while ago. sigh. I am almost out...

Stuck in Snow

So cold!! lol There is snow suffocating me in my own house. lol Homework just isn't fun on Saturdays.

"I'm the kind of girl who will laugh at nothing, and hugs complete strangers. I am no where near perfect, and I can't see five feet in front of me without glasses. My homework is never done, because my attention span loves shiny things. I don't care what people say about me, because if they are going to talk about me, they might as well have something to talk about.

I love summer, and would love to lay in the grass looking at the stars every night. Just laying there with your friends, and ignoring the hundred mosquito bites, and just staring at the beauty. Getting lost in them as you fall asleep in the Georgia summer air. Those are some of my best memories.

I love winter, laughing and darting through the snow with your friends. Shivering as snowflakes gently tickle your face. Huge smiles as you throw snow at each other then laughing as you fall into the snow. Trying to run into the house before you freeze.

I love my friends, family, unofficial family, and husband. I love them all to death. I have my unofficial little sister, my little sister, my husband, my best friend, and the other hundred people I love. They are the most amazing people in this world.

I wish I could freeze life right now. I wish this would never end, my friends wouldn't move away, high school wouldn't end, swim team would never end, and we all wouldn't leave for college. I love life, and everyone in it."

Don't Know Where To Start

Where can I start? I am freezing, three people are moving away, my birth control is making me false happy, I want to cry, my head is hurting, I have a B in Trig, and I want to sleep.

On a happier note... I AM GOING SHOPPING! yay.

Fuck it all.

Hah. I sound high in all my posts, and they do NOT sound like me. I am normally exhausted by the time I post though, so yay.

Yesterday, I barely made it through the day.lol I think I asked someone if they were excited summer was over... Uh. yeah... Not what I was going for. I couldn't find where I lived on a map for like ten minutes in Driver's Ed. I called Drew, Paul. I called Paul, Drew. I also got in the shower with my glasses on this morning.

Sleep deprived? Yes. Going Crazy? Likely.

I got a D+ on a trig test. wtf. Yeah me. Miss all A's almost failed a test. Wow. That is crazy. Soooo. It went from a B+, to a C+, to a D+. Anyone see a pattern? Yeah.

Off to school. :( Swim= FUN!

I sit here

I sit here... er lay here, thinking about life. I am a procrastinator by nature, but I strive for perfection, even when I knowingly cheat myself of it. I don't let anyone know about my blog, for fear of being judged.

I am writing a book. I really am. It is good so far. I am also doing a 500 word a day challenge. I hope to move up to 1,000 words a day.

737 words to my book. I did it all yesterday. Today, I want to get it up to 3,000. I will be exhausted, but I must do it.