The life of me... It is so boring, yet hectic. So adventurous, yet reserved. Ok. I'm done. lol I sometimes wonder if everything is worth it. Every one talks about their futures and envisions themselves in their respective careers. I can sometimes do it, but my range of focus rarely drifts past the preceding day.
My dreams of medical school seem so distant, yet so very near. hah This is not some poetic analogy. The thought of being in medical school seems so far off that I wonder if I will ever make it. While the lingering nervousness about the loans that happen to be synonymous with medical school, make the thought seem so near.
Without a job, car or license, my life seems ever so dull and lacks the preparation for my future it so desperately needs. I wonder if I wasn't so controlled by my parent's worries if I would be different.
Not only do they fret about me and boys, they fret about grades, and other such items. They have gotten better, and ever since I started school, they seem to basically not care at all. At. All.
It is quite sad how much they have dropped off, with out conversations barely scratching the surface of our daily lives. Of course my mother has begun to open up about everything, but now I feel alone with no one to talk to. I have worries and concerns, and my best friend is even MIA.
Ugh. I am also so tired.
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